feels like the point of breakingdown is not far now...everything is wearing off. just want to go any place home. want that homey feeling. where i can sit with a mug of hot coffee after a nice shower, and have my own schedule of doing nothing much at home, alone. where i can just sit and think in a this-is-not-so-imp fashion about my life. about a new start : about a new year in college. about my future art life. about new music. about the rains. about a new day dream, or a new mood, or a new word...about anything that is fresh. about anything that is not yesterday.