New obsession: Emoism!!

here's Aviva attempting to look emo!!

I cant breathe.
Oh god, help me please.
I’m begging you.
I’m on my knees.
Take away this pain.
Take this weakness from my veins.
Rip it out.
Inside I want to shout.
Express my feelings the only way I know how.
Take the pain away now!
Why don’t you care?
Why aren’t you there?
Why does it seem you want me out of your hair?
Too far to grasp…
I try to hide...
I put on my mask.
So then maybe you can't see my pain.
So then you think that I’m still sane.

[only an obsession...don't worry, I'm not suicidal (yet)]

its the sanest thing to do: blame

I'm not what is wrong is you are not what is wrong is the mind is not what is wrong is the situation is not what is wrong is the external forces are not what is wrong is the parrot is not what is wrong is the house is not what is wrong is the people are not what is wrong is the others are not what is wrong is this world is not what is wrong is this generation is not what is wrong is just me...
Somehow everything ends in a viscious circle, or should I say never ends in a vicious circle...I'm getting sick of these endless cycles...I'm running after what is running after me...does it make sense? but how does it matter...nothing has ever made sense in my life.
This is not how it's suppose to be.
I'm not as depressed as I sound.
In fact, I'm not depressed at all.
I'm happy.
Why then am I sad?
I don't recognize myself...
The need to run away from everyday is taking over again...

the world of the mind

belief · fireflies · sickness · midnight · obsession · water · shootin

g stars · independence · click · dead skin · construction · frustrat

ion · apples · suicide · telephone · inspiration · colour · intoxicatio

n · isolation · mind · destruction · mint chocolate · dusk · manipu

lation · creation · dragons · empathy · bend · clouds · blame · pop

ulation · aliens · clean · words · smoke · future · infatuation · mag

ic · cyclone · dedication · limits · waves · decision · wings · blank ·

instincts · ugly · addiction · dreams · love · scales · wolf · cold · art

· faeries · smell · high · space · dark · possibilities · music · planets

· ocean · mist · imagination · plans · fly · dew · walking · differenci

ation · hallucinations · eyes · tissue paper · fire · nobody · end · ra

in · leaves · white · void · underground · boundaries · gift wrappin

g paper · enough · light · straw · will · excitement · verbs · float · s

mooth · heartless · courage · desperation · phrases · enormous · je

alousy · confusion · struck · pun · cynicism · confessions · rhymes ·

movies · power · coffee · electric · gravity · lone · meditation · relig

ion· silence · block · dumb · centaur · noise · abuse · curiousity · ch

eck shirt · chemicals · blurry · time · super · battery · layers · wint

er coat · free falling · twinkle · misunderstanding · clarity · sip · che

ese cake · stare · moonlight · window · locked · begining · excessive

· leakage · want · control · run · influence · romance · discover · curr

upt · shut · question · chance · spec · fresh · forget · lie · neverland

Wipe off the smile, plug in the discman, and wear your dark glasses, and you no longer belong to their world.